Don't be sad!

It is very easy to fake your smile and happiness in front of the world. And it is very convenient to lie about a lot of stuff just to portray yourself to be a strong person on the outside. It might feel like liberating for a few minutes to resort to doing sinful things to momentarily get rid of that killing guilt. If you truly want to make an assessment of your self, go stand in front a mirror and look at yourself when no one is watching. Spend some time, contemplate, stand still and stare into who you appear to be. I am sure you would start crying after a point. Thoughts would cross your mind, distractions would accumulate, an eerie sense of all the hurtful feelings would pile up and take hold of you. Yes, it is such an annoyance to bother your mind with the past and be sad on the inside.

Ask yourself - how long are you going to skate like this? Why do you want to give in to passing pleasures hoping that you would get relief from all that keeps bugging your mind and heart - by doing things silencing the outcries of your heart? If you are sure what you are doing is not wrong at all - why do you want to hide them from the world? I plead with you like how beggars do to please be careful in not toeing that dangerous line. Think about the consequences and eventualities - they come after you and no one escapes them. It is time you understood - what makes you sweat is probably not the right thing to do. There are better ways to deal with sadness - however horrifying that could be. May be it will take some more time for you to understand. Or even longer. Or that you probably know it, but still have no option other than continue living your life the way you do - doing things that your soul doesn't really accept - so you clothe them in lies, sporting a numb conscience and pleading not guilty. You can probably think what one knows doesn't matter and what one can prove only matters. But dear, it is not about who can know and what they can prove. It is about you. Only about you. Tell me, why are you sad!

Are you sad because something makes you feel that you are so wretched and evil? No, you are not. Absolutely not. No one is a wretch and nobody is evil. You have to just open your eyes to understand and see how beautiful you really are - even with your flaws and shortcomings. You are an art - complete in its exemplary sculpt and perfection, but only with the tears that run down your cheek, the scars you carry and the wounds you hide. You wouldn't easily believe me if I told you - what you see as something ugly within you actually adds flavor to your otherwise sulking soul! Trust me, there is no one like you and you are special - viewed from every angle and every way. So don't listen to what people have to say, don't give heed to your own harsh self-critiques - please don't be so mean to yourself. There is a race to run and win. Beat them all and be the champ. Be always happy and say ta-ta to every inward disturbance and distress.

Tough times are necessary in life to make one strong. But you should not allow them to burn you down and consume you completely. I have been through depressing situations myself - hunger, bitter cold, being alone in a strange place for long, betrayals, riots, close-to-death experiences, accidents and a few more. I truly do not consider myself as a good person, there are so many pitfalls and I deal with all of them regularly - trying my best to overcome. But still, I have somehow survived all the tempests so far. The tree , thankfully, has not fallen down yet. In truth, we should be happy that we have to go through all these - or we would be living life in mediocrity without any real meaning and gratitude. Bitter times actually make you become better.

So why don't you forget yourself and the world around for a while? Why don't you just stop thinking and give your frail hands to me so I could hold them for a while with care! Why do you want to lie down in the muck like a dead frog! Get up from where you are stuck! Take a deep breath till you feel the warmth in your heart. Smile a little. A little more. Let me see that gleam in your eyes. Take comfort on my shoulders, so you feel the heaviness lighten. Close your eyes. Hum the first song that comes to your mind and see how all your burdens vanish like disappearing dew. Now tell me whatever is in your heart. I shall sit next to you and silently listen to all that you have to say - with words or without. I am not the type who advises on matters touching human emotions. Yet, I would only tell you one thing if you would like to do it for me. Yes!, you say and here I go - 'Place your hand next your heart, look at the skies and say - Thank You God! for everything - be that for good or for bad.' I am sure this objective assertion would fill you with peace. May you find your happiness and never let go of it.